Dance Becky Dance

So you can make me whole

beckymonsterr — Sat, 26 Jun 2010 01:15:56 +0000

Ok, so I’m not even going to try to start from where I left off! Basically, My life is a freakin’ soap opera errrrrr! I came out to my mom and everythings cool in that arena. I haven’t come out to my Dad though…but whatever. Anyways fixed a bit on my personal site, and well I have been wanting to play around in photoshop and psp but haven’t yet. Life is soo fucking hectic right now! We are bouncing from house to house and whatnot so, well its getting old. Also recently I’ve had mood problems again, It’s life I’m bipolar or something. Chris and I have been fighting recently which is so strange because normally we like never fight and it sucks because we have been away from each other for a while now and it’s over stupid shit Mikey’s been really there for me though. But then again he is also …well I’m always a bit uncertain about him. Then again I went to a tool concert and it was such an experience and I had an amazing time and everything was perfect! It was with my sister and her friend and her friends sort of cousin and he was really hot, and sweet, and had beautiful blue eyes and cute little freckles and well I wanted to makeout with him but I was either too chicken(afraid of rejection) or I didn’t want to be a slut. But you know when I’m with girls I am totally a slut so I don’t know why I’m not like that with guys! I put myself out there and am totally take charge with women and yet with men it’s like…I’m afraid or something but I’m like a huge ass flirt with everyone period, because well thats just part of my personality lol. It makes me sad I didn’t do something with him and I didn’t even get his number and well I need to just stop being like that with guys, I love who I am with girls! Errr sometimes I want to smack myself. Well, thats all for now just needed to vent later.

like shooting stars…

beckymonsterr — Fri, 14 May 2010 21:42:41 +0000

I want to try something new with makeup and clothes ya know? I mean I do different styles of eye makeup everyday and something a bit well…me but I want to do something even more crazy than usual. I feel really inspired and kind of want to try black lips but I don’t know, I’m blonde and blue eyed and don’t want to look silly instead of fierce lol.

My Lord

beckymonsterr — Sun, 09 May 2010 21:12:11 +0000

There is so much hate in the world…yet so much love. Why must people hate? If they look beyond the surface
and were not quick to judge people on their appearance or beliefs before they understood them,there would be much more understanding
and love between people of differences of opinion or beliefs. If selfishness did not run rampant through peoples minds.
You can love yourself and still love others equally. Think of others before your thoughts turn to yourself.
Want for others even before you want for yourself. Some may think love is a selfish thing because having it means you are happy, but its almost selfless and selfish in it pureness.
God says to love thy neighbours,I want to be that way and have no judgements. The trick is to not look with my eyes but with my heart.
I pray that god will help change me, he already has in many ways but I need to be more. God makes no mistakes.
He makes everyone beautiful, for he has made them. They/We may not choose to see their beauty but its there. You just have to look for it.
I used to want to want to be a good christian. How can there be a bad christian? We all have our faults for no one is perfect except the lord himself.
So aren’t all christians good for they want the lord inside their hearts and to lead them in all they do?
When I think of God I think of pure joy,happiness,love,purity,healing,longing, and forever wanting myself to be better if not for myself then for others and him.
The feeling of bettering yourself for him is amazing, there’s no other feeling. He drives you to dream bigger and better and to know there is no height he cannot reach and thing you can do through him.
God made us all different and he made us special for a reason, even if we do not know why yet.
I am bisexual and my lord loves me even more than I love him, which is hard to believe and yet he says it is so.

I love my lord and savior Christ.

Where or where?

beckymonsterr — Fri, 23 Apr 2010 16:09:05 +0000

So, New hair color. Brown. I bet you so thought it would be some crazy ass color but my mom said no so…yeah. I will probably be redying it blonde but I will try this out for a while it makes me look…older. Hm… Idk Well later.

New blog smell

beckymonsterr — Fri, 05 Mar 2010 04:45:41 +0000

Welcome to the new blog:) I also added my well, their not old or anything exactly and I might still post to them as well as here but now they share a home as well:) I plan to at least keep this one updated lmao. Well, so I can’t wait for the Numb3rs last few ep’s of the season! I mean the preview…oh my lord! Also can’t wait for white collar as well, I mean seriously I love Peter/Neal! Bromance love definitely. Also Psych’s Shawn and Gus completely in love I have to say! Also Shawn/Gus/Lassie Definitely feeling the love(or in lassie’s case mild dislike hehe). My brother,Chris, and I have little quotes from our different fandoms that we randomly tell to make each other laugh. Also when we want to be smart ass’s when our parents ask us to do something we put our heads together and whisper loudly and then say ,”Just smile and nod” and then smile and nod at our parents. It makes them laugh everytime:) I’m currently at my grandma’s house and chris is at home 5 hours away:( Miss him and my dog gizmo and my daddy. Just me and my mom here. My grandma had something in her mouth that turned out to be cancer and they took it out and all but she has to go to a cancer doctor for them to check everything out. My mom’s dad also had a heart thing but I don’t know him very well him and my grandma are divorced a long time ago and he is remarried to someone we call nana. I don’t know him very well because he hardly see’s us which kind of upsets my mom, that he doesn’t see her 4 kids and therefore his grandchildren. I want to be here for my mom through all this and also have my mom here for me as well. I know she will be. She has never let me down, I bet not all kids can say that about their mothers. I am very grateful for my family. It’s in god’s hands I guess. Well I’m going to watch the mentalist now. Later lovelies

Moving…

beckymonsterr — Fri, 05 Mar 2010 03:19:00 +0000

Hey so, I am going to add this blog to my new one that is connected with confuzzlement.myimperfections.org. It’s been a few yrs I know but I love my blog here but this one I hope will stick.

This is our Town;

beckymonsterr — Sat, 26 Sep 2009 12:22:00 +0000

So, I just got back from a sleepover with one of my besties Kody:) It was so much fun, you have no idea! Then I came home,took a shower,started making my new layout, and now I am randomly looking for supernatural screencaps because thursday’s episode gave me inspiration for my Castiel/Dean obsession xD **SPOILERRs**(I am soooo sad that dean and sam aren’t with each other but happy that dean can relax and of course more Castiel/Dean time is always welcomed by this girl ) Well, hmm… lets think I am listening to Anarbor right now,this is one of my fave bands btw. About to watch the vampire diaries ep. I missed and Bones too. Ohh.. the mentalist is backkk babyyy and amazing! Same for Castle I freakin’ love that show. NCIS as well and the new episode was amazing and I loved how awesome mcgee was yummmyyy. (END SPOILERSS)

Mkay, now I am texting my bestie Courtney and looking for someone to go to the football game this weekend with or do something. I also have lots of makeup work for school to do…I need to stop procrastinating errrgghhh :laughing: Well Later my lovelies

mkay… New castiel/Dean fanart…more coming soon haha

hmm…

beckymonsterr — Thu, 24 Sep 2009 18:11:00 +0000

www.confuzzlement.myimperfections.org

Thats where you will find most of my blogs

IDK….blah

beckymonsterr — Thu, 17 Sep 2009 19:41:00 +0000

Well I haven’t blogged in a while so lets see….

I’m back at home:) I’m in ninth grade now…yess! My birthday is in about a month…I will be 15! YAHH! I am still working on my walk with god:) I’ve been sick for about 2 weeks so I’ve been watching random shows online and right now I am watching numb3rs because thats how I roll. I am such a Band nerd But I love being so! I have been downloading lots of new music…. I like the band theory of a dead man now…its freakin’ fantastic! I also downloaded the Soundtrack to Transformers and mostly because I loved all the songs that played in the movie and I am in love my friends. Not to mention All my shows are starting to premiere their new seasons and I am on the edge of my seat(figuratively) waiting for them to! Well other than that..Kody and I are really close again and Courtney and I are too. We are like the closest we have ever been and I love it! Me and my mom are mending are relationship now that I’m not being such a bitch and my brother and I who were soooo close before are starting to get along better now again but …slowly coming. Well…I think having my blogs will help me vent and not be so mean… I hate being mean but lately it seems that I can’t help it when I am angry or bothered…it really sucks and I’m getting better at calming myself down and getting over it. Well thats all for now…later lovelies

Back from camp

beckymonsterr — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 02:50:00 +0000

I learned a lot about god and have grown spiritually and had so much fun doing it:) I just hope that I can continue what I am doing and gradually make it into a habit and that I can just glorify god with my life.

"and I say to you walk with the power of the spirit and you will definately not fulfill the desires of the flesh for the flesh desires that which is against the spirit and the spirit desires that which is against the flesh" Galations 5:16-17a

I want to be happy spiritually and have a sad flesh:)

well later i go sleepy