So you can make me whole

Ok, so I’m not even going to try to start from where I left off! Basically, My life is a freakin’ soap opera errrrrr! I came out to my mom and everythings cool in that arena. I haven’t come out to my Dad though…but whatever. Anyways fixed a bit on my personal site, and well I have been wanting to play around in photoshop and psp but haven’t yet. Life is soo fucking hectic right now! We are bouncing from house to house and whatnot so, well its getting old. Also recently I’ve had mood problems again, It’s life I’m bipolar or something. Chris and I have been fighting recently which is so strange because normally we like never fight and it sucks because we have been away from each other for a while now and it’s over stupid shit Mikey’s been really there for me though. But then again he is also …well I’m always a bit uncertain about him. Then again I went to a tool concert and it was such an experience and I had an amazing time and everything was perfect! It was with my sister and her friend and her friends sort of cousin and he was really hot, and sweet, and had beautiful blue eyes and cute little freckles and well I wanted to makeout with him but I was either too chicken(afraid of rejection) or I didn’t want to be a slut. But you know when I’m with girls I am totally a slut so I don’t know why I’m not like that with guys! I put myself out there and am totally take charge with women and yet with men it’s like…I’m afraid or something but I’m like a huge ass flirt with everyone period, because well thats just part of my personality lol. It makes me sad I didn’t do something with him and I didn’t even get his number and well I need to just stop being like that with guys, I love who I am with girls! Errr sometimes I want to smack myself. Well, thats all for now just needed to vent later.